This week’s letter is very different from what I had envisaged people writing about in this column, but it focuses on something very personal to me and is very powerful, and so had to be published.
Intrusive thoughts are unwanted and dangerous, and this week’s letter is written from a voice in one reader’s head. Thankfully its writer did beat this voice, and is now well again.
If you are at all vulnerable then please read carefully as this may be a trigger for some.
Seeing as you are not listening to me I have no choice but to scream a little louder.
I am always here you know. I am a part of you and am inside your head and controlling your thoughts. But you know that already and you can challenge me all you want, but I won’t ever go away.
And the thing is, you know I’m right, don’t you? I make perfect sense. In fact, nothing has ever been clearer than my voice right now. I love sucking you in before going quiet for a couple of days and making you think you’ve won. But you’ll never win. Want to know why? It’s because you are pathetic and weak. Not strong enough to even control your own mind.
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By Jen Faulkner
Letter: a written, typed, or printed communication, sent in an envelope by post or messenger.
Over the years I have received several letters, and the contents of some in particular have stayed with me.
One of these was from my father, who passed away sixteen years ago. The writing doesn’t contain anything ground breaking or hugely emotive, but his handwriting on the page is familiar, as his humour within the words.
Another was written to me when I was fifteen, by a man who wanted to date me and claimed to be nineteen, when he was in fact in his thirties. I devoured his letter on the way to school, words from this charming man telling me, over five handwritten pages, that he was falling in love with me. Grooming at its most traditional. Continue reading If you could write a letter to anyone, to who would you write, and why?